My life has changed a lot over the years. More than the outside person might realize.
But we all change, whether it’s our appearance, our job, where we live or internal changes like how we think, feel and decide to treat each other.
Time is a major factor in all of this. Time has made me forget some of my favorite stories. Some of the stories that I do remember, I remember in a way that surely is only about 85% correct.
I was in a car accident about 6 months ago, and had been working at McDivitt Law Firm for about 3 weeks. When I was in the accident, it felt like time had stopped. It was strange how what felt like 10,000 different ideas and circumstances happened to me all at once. I was totally overwhelmed, even though I was physically fine.
It’s taken me a long time to write about the accident because I was afraid that if I talked about it, I would sort of jinx myself and something bad might happen to me again. I meet with people every day who have been in car accidents, and I wonder if I am more susceptible to this on-going anxiety because I relive their stories every day.
I finally felt compelled to write this story today, because it marks the five year anniversary of the death of a good friend and co-worker from my high school days. This friend and I knew each other for about 8 years. We played football together, worked together, and like most friends, we fell out of touch once everyone went their separate ways in college. When I found out he had passed away in a motorcycle accident, it was tough on me. We were both seniors in college.
But time goes on. I’ve learned to be more mature in times of tragedy, and I’ve learned to not take anything for granted. I don’t leave anything up to chance, and I value my family.
And I worry. A lot.
This feeling is probably pretty normal but it doesn’t feel like it when circumstances in your life change so quickly. I really like structure, and control, because it allows me to worry a lot less. I can’t imagine what it would feel like to deal with such a devastating tragedy as a parent, or a husband.
I talk to people every day who have been in car accidents. Everyone, and every story, is different. It’s hard to deal with all of these competing circumstances without a good support system, let alone by yourself. I guess what I’m trying to say is that you deserve to be healthy, and happy.
A lot of people tell me they are “fine” after their accident. But when we are scared we don’t always say what we mean.
You don’t have to handle all of these problems alone. You don’t have to fear that you won’t get the proper medical care. Most importantly, you don’t have to worry all the time.
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